Sunday, October 19, 2008

Putting Prayer in Perspective. Frank's Sunday Service

Is it just me or is prayer kind of a funny concept or at least a journey that takes a while to get? From the time I was a kid I was encouraged to "say my prayers' and they went something like this:

Now I lay me down to sleep.
I pray the lord my soul to keep.
If I should die before I wake,
I pray the lord my soul to take.

Gosh that's a little macabre for a little kid but when I whispered those words at night I never really thought about what those words meant personally to me. I was reciting some words that I thought would possibly put me in good favor with The Big Kahuna. The words were in a way soul-less. How many soul-less prayers have I said in my life? Many.

At this point in my life journey, I've tried many different ways of praying, so I could connect more deeply to (a) God or Higher Power. I've tried not praying at all because I figured no words were better than empty ones. There was a phase where I repeated a few simple prayers over & over though I didn't feel them because it seemed better than nothing and too boot I always felt that HP knows what we're trying to say, even if we can't quite articulate it.

In prayers I've asked for nothing, asked for certain things, asked for world peace & even whirled peas. I've tried simply talking to HP, like I would a friend on the phone. Prayers have been said on my knees, on a pew, laying down, in child's pose, while walking, while taking a dump, while dancing. I've tried dancing as prayer. Singing as prayer & even having sex as a prayer.

There have been many moments where I felt I needed to know just what I was praying to and felt even more lost. Or I prayed to something emotionally concrete, only to feel it crumble months or years later. My prayers have been deeply honest with tears & laughter and sometimes my prayers have been a cop out for doing real spirit work.

All in all, these experiences with prayer have been worthwhile because in the end I've always connected more deeply to my true intentions for life. My head & heart have at moments managed to connect, even when I didn't know how or why to connect. And today, just for today, my prayers are about as simple and as complicated as a prayer can get. And it goes like this:

I don't know who you are
or what you want from me,
but if you want anything to do with me,
then come on!

~F

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